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takashi shirogane ([personal profile] earthshine) wrote2022-05-12 08:06 pm
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Hi, this is Shiro.
Sorry I'm unavailable at the moment,
but leave a message and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.
marmoron: by request of the icon creator, pls do not take (moe bafflement)

[personal profile] marmoron 2022-07-19 10:52 pm (UTC)(link)
[ there's a reason neither have them have bucked orthodoxy by bringing up that incident in any detail. keith remembers that reason the instant shiro goes rigid and awkward around him. flustering in turn, keith goes shy and ducks his chin.

honestly, he's not even sure what prompted the commentary in the first place. they'd been teasing each other and the handcuffs had been topical. but of course, the handcuffs are inextricably tied to ... the rest of keith's behavior that day. swallowing, keith presses his thighs tighter still.

part of him wants to ask why shiro even has a pair of handcuffs, but the answer seems obvious enough considering the paraphernalia activities has handed off to him as well. tragically, however, what keith ends up blurting is much much worse.
]

Do you uh... get a lot of people to behave like that?
marmoron: (dont wanna go to baby jail)

[personal profile] marmoron 2022-07-19 11:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[ and once again, keith wishes he hadn't said anything at all. the lurch of iertia is almost physically painful as keith rounds his shoulders and turns his face away. ]

I didn't mean anything bad.. [ then, aborting the sentence mid-thought, keith winces and mutters: ] ... Sorry. I shouldn't have said anything. I wasn't thinking.

[ except maybe he was? because it's porn prison and shiro's been more adamant than any of the other paladins about completing sentences. deflating a little further, keith releases shiro's wrist. ]

.... I don't know where I'm going with this.
Edited 2022-07-19 23:44 (UTC)
marmoron: marmoron (heke?)

[personal profile] marmoron 2022-07-20 02:21 am (UTC)(link)
[ frankly, "it's fine" does a poor job of reassuring keith of much, but the tightening of shiro's arms around him and further crowding into his space are both far more xonvinxing. at the very least, shiro isn't retreating and with keith's next exhale, the tension leaves his shoulders and he turns just enough to brush shiro's face cheek to cheek. ]

Do you...

[ want to? but the question dies in keith's mouth. does keith really want to talk about toji right now? this time, he flicks just his gaze away to look at the pillow. should he even really be caring about shiro's lovers?

a little hesitantly, keith places his hand ontop of shiro's. the touch is light, experimental and then he lets his hand flop onto the sheets.
]

... never mind. I don't know what I want. I want this.
marmoron: marmoron (rukia cosplay)

[personal profile] marmoron 2022-07-20 03:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ his gaze shifts first to their joined hands, before looking back to shiro's face. the smile comes reflexively, as does the subtle nuzzle back, but it only lasts as long as keith takes his mind off of trying to put words to the discontent he's feeling.

really, it's not even discontent towards shiro, is it? just for the circumstances and the expectations set in place that make it hard to know whether he even has a right to want some kind of assurance that they mean something more to each other than the trysts that aphrodisiac can induce.

but then again, what exactly is keith's excuse for going to see his anonymous if that's stopped being aphrodisiac induced a while ago? keith furrows his brow, slowly turning his hand, palm side up to interlace his fingers with shiro's.
]

I guess... I just want to know. Are you like this with other people? You know... like. Holding hands because even if it's not for credits and cuddling and stuff?

[ he squeezes briefly at shiro's hand, tone even and non accusatory. ]

Like with that guy. Toji.
marmoron: marmoron (cautious wonderment)

[personal profile] marmoron 2022-07-21 04:10 am (UTC)(link)
[ keith doesn't know what to think really. the confirmation that shiro has others doesn't come as any surprise -- not after that network post with toji and the one that followed it with questions about anal. quite plausibly, it's hypocritical and irrational to feel relieved to know that this tenderness isn't something shiro freely gives away to anyone he sleeps with, but there's a slow warmth radiating outwards from his chest at the thought.

keith shifts in shiro's arms, turning enough to make eye contact. it's entirely selfish, greedy even, to want intimacy with shiro that's only between them. arguably, it's not even feasible with the aphro that floods every crevice of this stupid place. moreover, keith isn't sure what he'd even write back to anonymous if the guy ever expressed interest in actually getting to know each other.

keith opens his mouth before having any idea of what he wants to say. words always get tangled and stuck at the worst of times, it seems. he breathes in, out, not looking away from shiro's face.
]

I think... hearing that makes me happy? I guess I just don't know what it means to ... be here and have those feelings, knowing you have other people you like being physical with too. [ a beat, then he swallows. ] ... and the same for me? I guess.
Edited 2022-07-21 22:35 (UTC)
marmoron: marmoron (there is no concern here)

[personal profile] marmoron 2022-07-21 11:41 pm (UTC)(link)
You're not gonna ask me to stop?

[ the question slips out of keith against better judgment, his regret made all the more obvious by the grimace barely a beat later. ]

I mean... [ what does he mean? and why the fuc is he vaguely disappointed? keith bites the inside of his lip, taking a deep breath. the thing is ... keith's experience with sharing intimacy prior to this prison facility is nonexistent. what he knows about relationships and dating is that they're conventionally monogamous. and frankly, despite knowing other configurations of relationships exist, keith isn't entirely sure if that's even right for him.

hell, he's still figuring out if sex is right for him. anonymous makes him think he wants it -- and maybe even wants it a lot, but part of that surely has to do with the fact that there aren't any expectations outside of their trysts.

but perahps he's getting completely sidetracked. shiro doesn't want to ask him to stop, which implicitly suggests that shiro himself doesn't want to stop and doesn't want what they have to be what keith honestly thinks of when he imagines a boyfriend.

boyfriend. right. that's a forbidden word if there ever wer, huh? keith banishes it from thought with a mental headshake then clears his throat.
]

... I guess that's how it has to be. Place messes with everyone so. [ so. he sighs, squeezing shiro's hand. ] ... But I don't like this.

[ because of course shiro is his favorite person, and for better or for worse, keith doesn't know how to not be loyal. porn prison's starting to erode that though, and keith flushes with a mix of shame and embarrassment. ]

... but I know I can't be everything for you.

[ and maybe neither can shiro for him? discontent simmers. ]
marmoron: marmoron (sad smiles)

[personal profile] marmoron 2022-07-22 01:40 am (UTC)(link)
[ shiro shifts, angling up to give keith a clear look at his face. not wholly consciously, keith shifts as well, scooting to occupy the space beneath his best friend.

enough.

funny. keith's never been an overachiever once in his life. sure, he'd been protecctive over his status as the best cadet of his class, but even that title hadn't meant much when shiro was no longer around to grab his shoulder and ruffle his hair with all the pride in the world. enough. it's a bitter word to hear coming from shiro. keith's never wanted to be enough to shiro -- no, for shiro he wants to aim for the fucking stars.

but of course, as shiro says, that's not "realistic." again, another word that seems out of place for their tumultuous friendship. time and time again, they've been forcibly separated, then reunited. shiro's been dead, then brought back from the depths of black's consciousness. it would have been realistic of keith to give up on shiro for dead so many times and yet ....

fuck, is porn prison really the place where "realistic" suddenly means something? or is rejecting that just set up for an inevitable crash and burn of disappointment? or does all of that not even fucking matter at this point because the fact of the two of them being space-time anomalies who are only together because of some unrealistic fuckery to begin with makes all of this pointless to agonize over?

he looks up then at his best friend, raising a hand to cup his cheek. the smile that tugs at his lips is a little fragile, but sincere. after all, isn't it kind of a fucked up but beautiful thing to get to touch his best friend's real face here, when he never got the chance to touch him tenderly before?
]

Good.

[, he laughs, and it's a quiet, soft thing that's more exhale than amusement. ]

So come down here and kiss me.
marmoron: (more scandalous)

[personal profile] marmoron 2022-07-22 04:22 am (UTC)(link)
[ of course keith isnt being fair to either of them by barricading the conversation behind a simple good and moving on from there, but he feels so rewarded when shiro softens up and actually laughs. for everything they've seen and been through over the years, together and apart, it makes him happy to think that making shiro laugh can always be this simple.

or well, maybe it's not so simple because the power to induce affection with demands for kisses is still new enough to make keith feel a little giddy when he allows it. keith's own expression relaxes then, smile broadening as shiro cages him in with his arms and leans down for the kiss.

as always, it's soft and gentle and keith rememebrs to close his eyes a beat late. the hand that started on shiro's cheek moves to wrap around his neck, fingers lightly scratching through the undercut. he doesn't think it's going to last because shiro's kisses always come with a fast timer, but all the same he holds shiro there to his lips. not hard enough to keep shiro from being able to retreat, but present. demanding in its own right.

he parts his lips the then, breath hitching at the suggestion of tongue but suddenly nervous about chasing after shiro's taste. because what if he's bad at this? what if shiro doesn't like kissing him because he's sloppy and unpracticed and all his other partners are better at this? unsure, but not liking the uncertainty, keith murmurs against shiro's mouth. ]

Kiss me more....

[ with obviously clear instructions delivered, keith waits with bated breath. ]
marmoron: marmoron (casual smiles)

[personal profile] marmoron 2022-07-23 02:47 am (UTC)(link)
[ and right on cue, the nanosecond shiro starts pulling away keith is ready to protest. gladly would have too, if it weren't for how shiro kisses him again. partly mollified, keith allows himself to be lulled into complacency, only for that kiss to end far too soon. keith blinks open his eyes, unsure, but then there's a whole slew of kisses on his face and jaw and --

fuck, it's not what keith wanted. but the affection is sweet and it makes him laugh as he cards his fingers thorugh shiro's floof on the next kiss at his jaw.
]

Heh, you giant dork. Stop teasing me!

[ other hand coming up to draw a line down from shiro's cheek to lips, keith grins a pinch mischievously. ]

I want a proper kiss.
marmoron: marmoron (sooooft)

[personal profile] marmoron 2022-07-23 04:08 am (UTC)(link)
[ the question earns shiro a raised eyebrow. truly, "giant dork" has never been so apt. still happily under the impression that shiro is teasing as keith is however, he merely closes his eyes and nervously parts his lips in anticipation of his very proper kiss.

you know, a proper boyfriend-but-not-boyfriend kiss should go?

but instead shiro starts pulling away again and keith blinks his eyes back open, dismayed by the continued trolling. one look at the hopefulness on shiro's face though and suddenly keith is questioning everything. it's strange, actually. keith gets stuck in his reaction, caught between amused and confused and forgets to press his lips closed again. was he unclear? more and proper hadn't seemed like vague descriptors to him, but then again...
]

No.

[ he huffs, cupping shiro's face in both his hands. ]

Proper like ... with your tongue in my mouth, dork.
marmoron: (scandalous :/)

[personal profile] marmoron 2022-07-24 07:18 am (UTC)(link)
[ oh. so shiro wants to argue over semantics? truly wearing that dork flag proudly, huh? wise, then, that shiro chooses not to give keith time to fire back with banter. more, deeper -- the two are basically synonyms where anal is concerned, so why should it be different with kissing? but shiro presses their mouths together again, and that alone has keith's heart skipping and dropping whatever train of thought he had going about anal sex. he gasps as shiro pulls back to suck gently at his lower lip, only barely keeping a whisper of shiro's name to himself.

but finally, shiro gives him the more he was asking for. or deepens it, whatever terminology his dork wants to use and the first brush of tongues makes keith's toes curl, hands instinctively pressing more urgently before it occurs to him that maybe squeezing shiro's face while they kiss isn't exactly the pinnacle of "sexy."

whatever sexy even means. keith parts his lips, allowing shiro to lead and show him how to kiss this way. despite this being objectively tamer on the list of what keith's been up to, it still carries a weightiness to it that keith doesn't know what to do with. intimacy is different when it's shared with a door between people and when it's shared up close, personal. he moves his tongue tentatively, shivering at the wet taste of his best friend's mouth and is hopelessly smitten with this and the potential they're paving together.

heart beating dangerously faster and faster, keith splays his fingers wide to caress shiro's jaw and cheeks, holding him close before finally pulling away, bookending the end of this kiss the way it started with a gentle suck at shiro's lower lip. cheeks warm, and lips tingling keith breathes out.
]

I ... I don't want you kissing other people like this. Is that dumb?
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[personal profile] marmoron 2022-07-24 11:19 pm (UTC)(link)
[ shiro calls the sentiment "sweet" and proceeds to follow up with considerably less innocence. between the slow, careful roll of their tongues together and the repositioning that leaves shiro suspended above him, the kissing takes on filthier undertones to mix with the giddy flutter in his chest. the space between their bodies doesn't amount to much, but it somehow manages to feel like an entire chasm when keith drags his hands lower to wrap around broad shoulders, wanting that space gone and to feel the heat and weight of shiro's body on top of his own.

it's a mistake. a thrum from their connection of their mouths runs straight down keith's spine and settles at the tip of his cock. inadvertently keith whines into the kiss, instinctively seeking out more or deep or whatever, but shiro's already pulling away before keith can pull him down. despite immediate disappointment, when he's a little less kiss fogged, he can at least find a pinch of relief in avoiding a hard on he's not entirely certain he's ready for shiro to see.

after all, how does one even begin to explain alien dick to somene you just started kissing?

he laughs airily, his expression soft as shiro speaks though. if having sex with others is an inevitability, then surely kissing must be too, right? but he can't bring himself to point out the obvious because shiro's smiling sweet and dopey and keith just wants to look at him. giving one shoulder a squeeze, keith mumurs quietly:
]

That mean you're gonna kiss me more to make up for the deficit?

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