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POOR LANCE. shiro's just being ridiculous

[earthshine]

[ possible. it’s entirely possible that keith didn’t think it was important enough to tell. or that it isn’t any of shiro’s business to know. likely the second one, which, despite shiro’s huffiness, he can admit to being a valid take. it's not a big deal in the grand scheme of things. it’s a one hook-up in a multitude of hook-ups, one that happened when shiro wasn’t even around to be a concern.

… unless it wasn’t just a one time thing. it sounds like a one time thing, but rationality takes a back seat to suspicion and shiro replays lance saying firsts. still applicable to one night together, but then he’s thinking about keith, shortly after shiro’s arrival, wanting to try bottoming. shiro hadn’t taken him up on the offer until days later and by then, keith had already given that first away. now, keith says he only ever bottoms to someone he trusts. so who would it have been? barely a month into prison life and keith had found someone he trusted enough to bend over for? who if not lance?

does it matter? all this time later, does it actually matter?

shiro hedges on answering his own question, genuinely uncertain of where he stands on the issue. all in all, it’s the sorry that has him hearing what’s being said, attention sharpening once more. ]

No. [ barely any hesitation on that front. disappointed or not at being left out of the loop, shiro, at least, recognizes that he’s being a lousy friend. he isn’t immune to guilt and here, it finds him to soften his voice. ] No, I’m sorry, Lance.

[ over the line, there’s the sound of him drawing a heavy breath, one that’s exhaled on a sigh. more and more, he sounds more like his predictable, accepting self, albeit a little worn around the edges. ]

You came to me with a question and I’m focusing on the wrong thing.

ridiculousness is a dish best served like fruitcake: rewrapped and regifted

[lanceylance]

It's fine. [ the words come out a little too quick, but it can't be helped. ] I mean, I probably deserve it.

[ if he hadn't been so panicked over potentially losing his virginity to a stranger, keith never would have called him out to the pool, and they never would've ended up at keith's place, and nothing ever would've happened between them. but he'd been downright terrified... and all for naught. all koro had wanted was for him to tell him stories about home. nothing had happened at all, and he didn't have it in him to tell keith because he didn't want the guy to be mad at him over it. ]

Maybe it'd be best if I just... set the whole thing back to 'denial' and we just pretend this never happened?

[ it's his go-to for avoiding uncomfortable situations, and although it hasn't really done him any good, it also hasn't failed him much either. well, except for the part where internalizing it may not be the best idea out there, but he doesn't have a better plan. trying to talk things out had only ended with him focusing on what happened and not himself because he's never taken the time to think about it. it's easier to rehash a concrete than ponder the intangible.

of course, while he might be able to ignore this, it doesn't mean that shiro would be able to. it's always touchier when there's another person involved, and in this case, there's another two. ]

I'll even let you off the hook with answering. Just... promise me that at least one of you is gonna get home? Preferably both of you? 'Cause Keith already said he doesn't wanna be stuck with me for eternity, so I'd feel really bad if either of you ended up stuck here with me, y'know?