[ the questioning inflection to hearing that makes me happy is not the strongest confidence booster. silently to himself, shiro can acknowledge that keith is, perhaps, a touch stunted when it comes to verbalizing. the weird thing though, is that shiro is beginning to realize that he is too. he’s always been so good at talking, from public speaking to team leading to one on one pep talks. conversations centered around himself though… – he should have learned from adam. they drifted apart, they wanted different things, sure, maybe the break-up is no one’s fault in the end, but looking back, shiro can see that he didn’t talk to adam like he should have. he should have opened up more, about his fears for the mission, his reservations for his body holding out, his needs to prove himself, his hopes for when he returned, for the both of them. maybe then adam would have understood the narrow-focus and the drive to keep pushing, to not slow down enough to doubt. maybe then adam would have stayed.
again, shiro wonders if there’s a meaning behind the photograph that’s hidden away in his locker. he mulls over the thought briefly, too brief to do anything with it, and then reminds himself to be open. the only way this is going to work is if they keep talking things through, because otherwise…? shiro thinks of the argument of a few weeks back, when assumptions piled high in his head the moment keith said he’d been with someone else.
there’s no escaping that. not here. there can be nothing conventional about them being together in a place like this. ]
If you’ve found other people who you’re comfortable being with and if that’s what you want… [ the words come together slowly. he’s working it out as he’s saying it, hoping that the conclusion is one they can both live with. ] … then it’s okay. I don’t… [ he furrows his brow and wets his lips, pausing for a brief moment to gather his thoughts. ] I’m not asking you to stop.
[ he’s trying to be rational. he still stands by his push to finish their sentence sheets, especially when escape attempts keep going haywire. he would suggest, maybe, working through their sheets together but… shiro’s track record isn’t the greatest. he can’t even check off kissing for keith.
he breathes out a soft sound, self-berating and worn as he rubs his fingers against keith’s hand, occasionally tightening for a squeeze. ]
But it’s a little hard to stomach, to be honest. [ he laughs, just to off-set how pathetic this makes him sound. ] I’m used to being your favorite and receiving all the special treatment.
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again, shiro wonders if there’s a meaning behind the photograph that’s hidden away in his locker. he mulls over the thought briefly, too brief to do anything with it, and then reminds himself to be open. the only way this is going to work is if they keep talking things through, because otherwise…? shiro thinks of the argument of a few weeks back, when assumptions piled high in his head the moment keith said he’d been with someone else.
there’s no escaping that. not here. there can be nothing conventional about them being together in a place like this. ]
If you’ve found other people who you’re comfortable being with and if that’s what you want… [ the words come together slowly. he’s working it out as he’s saying it, hoping that the conclusion is one they can both live with. ] … then it’s okay. I don’t… [ he furrows his brow and wets his lips, pausing for a brief moment to gather his thoughts. ] I’m not asking you to stop.
[ he’s trying to be rational. he still stands by his push to finish their sentence sheets, especially when escape attempts keep going haywire. he would suggest, maybe, working through their sheets together but… shiro’s track record isn’t the greatest. he can’t even check off kissing for keith.
he breathes out a soft sound, self-berating and worn as he rubs his fingers against keith’s hand, occasionally tightening for a squeeze. ]
But it’s a little hard to stomach, to be honest. [ he laughs, just to off-set how pathetic this makes him sound. ] I’m used to being your favorite and receiving all the special treatment.